Dear Readers, I share this post originally written in 2013. Isn’t it soothing to realize things I don’t want show up and I flow toward what I do want! I remember Faith and I find happy again before too long.
On Christmas morning when I wanted to check my email, my computer would not boot up properly.
Instead, I found myself staring into a black screen with one small white arrow.
I tried to turn it off and on again, tried letting it rest an hour or so, took the battery out and in, plugging unplugging… It did not change the situation.
Gazing into that screen I felt..er.. unsettled. I admit I started to get upset, pinched off from Source. Pulling out an alternate device, I emailed SOS to a geek friend.
Meanwhile, I baked and prepared for a Christmas afternoon gathering. I went out and enjoyed myself.
Earlier in my life I would have thought that experiencing this upset would block the flow of good to me. I would have seen myself as “not a good Aber” and that I was “less than” because I got pinched off.
Here is what I am discovering about the Laws of the Universe: I am Good, including good enough! Boy, it feels really heartening to experience how well things went. I felt distressed moments, yes and then still received positive outcome: the computer was “fixed” without any loss of data or other damage ( a visit to the geek friend– he did the trick though he does not know what went wrong specifically).
Through this incident I felt some upset, nervousness, dread, depression.
I reached– Maybe this blip will somehow show me how dear is my geek friend.
Maybe I will see how all is well despite the black screen. I reached for the positive I could.
I slowed the momentum going where I did not want to go– I read a novel.
Next morning I woke with some freshness though not as high flying as other days. I called a friend for support, got talking about how well other things were going, felt much better.
Take away(s) for me:
1. I feel all kinds of things on my journey.
2. What I did for relief was enough to come through unscathed.
3. I had been telling a friend who just purchased a new computer how wonderful it was to have this tech savvy friend backing me up. The Universe gave me more of that! Cute to notice.
4. Cool to note my range of feelings as human on this eternal journey. Great to see evidence of my resilience.
I have been receiving many signs to focus on faith, persist in my optimism. Isn’t it great to see that we can easily find our way to happy again on this human journey?
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