This week I experienced an intestinal upset. I changed my food and focused on healing. In my near future I’d planned for a trip north to visit friends and family. Had improvement and after 5 days I had another upset with only a few days remaining till the leave date for the journey.
With the second upset I was aware of the pull of the habitual thought pattern. I’d tell myself that I did not do enough last week to promote healing. I should have…. Know what? When I run thoughts like that, it feels awful. This time– wait! I don’t want to go there.
Instead there’s enough time to heal now. This health blip can turn around easily. Last week I had good reason for behaving as I did. If I need to course change, now I can and will. I can have a good time away or at home. My fun is assured– even sick or not!
Last week I thought it might be food poisoning or the like, that I will correct in a day or so. This week I see evidence of viral involvement. On my journey letting life flow, living and responding. Wow this path feels so much better than blaming myself!
I write this piece because I am heartened to notice this progress in myself. I felt the self blame habit strongly and I could circumvent it with better thoughts. This is what a learning process looks like.
And as of this writing I postponed the trip. I am resting into my healing and supporting myself. Ahhh. I went for a swim and took a yoga class. I let myself release tension and breathe. In the car I heard a piece from an Abraham cd which resonated: A man had crashed his drone plane, one he loved. He mourned it. Abraham reminded him that he had launched rockets of desire and was heading toward an even better time with what is next. I have faith that good times roll for me :).
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